Detail of "Vanitas," Adriaan Coorte, 1688,
Zeeuws Museum, Middelburg, Netherlands,
photographed 30 June 2009, 14:19 by zullie
[Source: Wiki Loves Art / NL project]
by John Jack Jackie (Edward) Cooper
Closer to a precipice, I shrink: indifferent to salvation, pray
for calm, control -- pity, less purpose; plead award of concentration,
allowed reserve -- allowed, of course, being false: deniable reward,
testing ice where firm decision
by itself must grant the go-ahead.
God does not play dice, Einstein says,
with this universe, nor any other --
neither ought I: its least
affiliate of empty space.
But act, instead, as I shall attend:
in fullness of self-contempt,
like a cistern; brim pride, shame,
excessive rage, yet exceed -- not enough;
hand raised, in arrest of hopeful despair,
mutter "too much," fallen far and far:
leave now only to crawl no farther on land, capable of pitching headlong.